So what did I do? Erm... I ate all the food. Hello miss piggy, oh yep that's me. There's a song that's pretty apt 'they see me rollin'' oh yep I rolled alright. I ate because it was Christmas and because well why not eh?
However I've changed in many ways, so last Christmas I was stressing and counting my syns this year I was like you know what just roll with it Kez and enjoy. I did just that, my relationship towards food has changed so much.
I mean once you find the right balance you're laughing right? Wrong. The happier you become and the more relaxed you get with food the harder it is to get back on it. Well for me anyway. It's always one more chocolate one more crisp. When I was on it last year loosing my weight I was like this untouchable slimming world machine who did no wrong now I'm like a slimming world rebel.
I've maintained my weight for like 2 ish months months now, why couldn't I do that at target? Well I think the weight wasn't manageable for me, I've a new target in mind but will I ever snap out of this relaxed mode? I'm doing no damage but I'm doing no good either.
Any advice guys? I need that mojo I once had, I need the kezza flame. Is it because I'm enjoying life? Is it because I'm happier with myself? I don't know, wish I knew. All I know is I need to lose weight as I'm not 100% happy, just not sure I'll ever get there like.